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I don't like it when I can't do anything about a problem and can't come up with a solution. Most of the time I am forced into such a situation and I am so frustrated but probably that is the only way I am stopped in my tracks to ponder and really realising that I am not capable and just helpless.
Knowing is one thing but really bringing it from the head to the heart is tough.
Will be moving out to the working world in about less than a year's time. The place where the lofty perks are. Can't believe it but its true that when you are in a place where you are allowed to choose its not easy. So much of me saying God let Your will be done. A struggle that is continuous.
For the past one week I have been thinking about what career I would like to do in the next couple of years and what I would like to achieve. I am suppose to be focusing on passing my CIMA exams (which I tell you I am far from being able to pass at the rate things are going) but my mind is like some little unsettle kid jumping up and about as if I am graduating soon.
I said that I want the Lord's hand in my life and also directing my path but so fast I tell Him what I want practically giving Him the directions on how to lead me instead. Before I even finish my day dream, He reminded me about where is He in all this. Not to mention that day itself during prayer they shared about the exact passage of Lot and Abram and how sometimes what we think is good and right may not be so and how we should not look at others and envy their success because if the Lord is at hand then He is.
Today, I was looking at my friend's facebook profile. She's same age with me and she has a little baby already. Just looking at her baby and her just kick in the reality that I am an adult now. Don't get me wrong I am not jealous nor wanting one anytime soon. Its nice seeing the little girl in her mum's arms but sends the chills down mine. Gosh! A mum at this age? She makes a great one though. Salute her for her courage! Was quite funny when I saw she named her little girl the same name with one of my good friends. =)
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Not updating my blog when I have the inspiration and then saving it till the end of the week really makes it tough to keep the sentiments and also trying to put it in a nut shell as I don't want to write a long post. Will categorize them for today's post!
The Template Institute Workshop 2010
It was really good as I had the opportunity to reflect and also just spend time just allowing God to speak. Love the way Matt and Landa just stirs our set thinkings. To keep it short it was a time where I really felt challenge and yet a very refreshing feeling. Though the mental energy and the spiritual tug was quite a strain. Worse than listening to a lecture by Mr.Chin or sitting in office the whole day.
CIMA,TARC and Work
After a full day's reading I really don't feel like reading anymore when I come back to my room. Quite glad for the first time I finish my homework not the day I am suppose to hand in which is just a 30min work. Took a little more time and effort this time round. I am getting quite use to the work I do. However, I would like to stop work earlier than plan to concentrate on the CIMA exams as I really seem to be struggling. Not sure when I am going to stop though. Feel honored that the TARC bus chauffeurs me to and fro from work everyday. Save RM4 a week by taking the TARC bus instead of the public bus. Apart from the bus being empty and I am the sole passenger the bus uncle's are really nice and sends me to the hostel gate each day therefore I do not have to walk far back to hostel better than the public bus. :) The one thing that I have tried carrying from the things I have learned from the workshop is to trust God in everything and really believing it with my heart even when things around seems to tell me that that is not the reality of life. I find that it helps me appreciate what I am doing at work and also the place I am put in.
UK and beyond
Ok don't give me that stare....I know I should be concentrating on my studies and stuff but well how can you stop a person that has been dreaming of UK ever since she started in secondary school? Manage to talk to Edwin about backpacking and really after calculating my tight budget I might have some extra resources to squeeze in a little Europe trip. What other way to see Europe in budget than through backpacking. So, yeaps my mind has been busy thinking of all the areas I can go visit and explore after my semester in Sheffield ends. Do hope I can meet up with a few friends and maybe get a free stay too. :P Would like to go visit my cousin in Dubai on the way home too so that I can to visit Dubai since its my transit back home.
Well, I really hope that the pounds and the euro will be favourable to me. Don't have much and I really don't want to take anymore than allocated for the trips since I am already debt loaded even before earning a single penny. So for now till the end of my summer semester I am going to be more discipline in my budget so that I can explore the areas I want to. No additional entertainment for now. If you want to donate to me you are more than welcome and definitely much appreciated. By the way if you want to go backpacking as well you can come too. Not looking more than 5 for backpacking. So preferably another 2-3 people only. Let me know if you want to come along. If you are in Malaysia well you can always take a plane and meet us after our summer semester for the trip. =) Will continue scouting for info and all after the CIMA exams though its really something that I am ready to spend the whole week on researching on. Hehe!!
Thats all for now...just too many to write it all out. Just trying to keep the interesting parts in so that you are kept awake and also I will be excited even when I read it back in the future. God bless!! Have a great week ahead people! Thanks for keeping me in prayers.
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Today has been a very refreshing day. Waking up and not having to rush for the public transport and cramp in with smelly human body odour. Managed to get a good morning jog before the rest of the world wakes up.
Took leave today to go for the UK and English Test. Can't express my feelings about UK now. I am excited yet somehow not really looking forward to it. Still in the midst of considering which subject to take in the optional papers and also who to stay with in the UK. I guess I still have time to think about it.
Going for the revision class really makes me feel so overwhelm by the tremendous workload and I must say that last Sunday Service just reassured me on the things I am doing. So many questions flying inside my pea size mind but its great to just know that everything is in control.
Amazing I never thought I would see a Russian Pastor standing on our land let alone ministering to the believers here. Strangely he spoke the message that I needed to hear or rather the thing I was just talking to God about over the week and right before going to church (Attended Tabernacle of David Setapak). Very true that I really need to be like David to face my Goliath. Sometimes when things just come one after another its hard not to fear. David however manage to understand who's with him and that changed everything. So yups last Sunday's message is still ringing in my head.
I took leave for this Friday too so that I can attend The Template Institute Workshop 2010 and I know for sure it would be a good one because I have heard
Matt Rawlins before and his books are simple but yet touching the very core of things. So it will be great to hear from the horses mouth. Another great speaker will be
Landa Cope which is the founder of the Template Institute. I would certainly encourage you to come for the Thursday meeting since its free.
Workshop Details
Thursday: 8pm - 10pm (Open to anyone)
Friday / Saturday : 9am -4pm (Participants RM80)
On another note, sometimes when there is a wound it always takes time to heal and I am glad that it has. (I mean literally and also the unliteral sense) Don't ask!
Going to try to to be optimistic about the CIMA Externals. Classes has not been favourable hopefully in the next few weeks my understanding and knowledge will have good progress. Yeah so if you are free and have time do pray for me and my externals probably the thing I want to get over and done with. Partly because of the cost of the course. CIMA is expensive. :P
Oh and my lil bro pass his driving exams in his first round without paying any kopi tips. Kudos to him!!
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After one week working in a Bank, I really don't have much to say. If I am kept busy I think I actually don't mind working. In fact, apart from the packed train I pretty much enjoy the working experience each time. Sad to say when you have nothing to do and your mind goes idle its really a tough thing to handle especially for me.
I never day dream. Can you imagine I stared at the computer screen but actually nothing goes through. Basically because I was asked to read the Intranet when I have nothing to do and there is just so much you can read. Sick and tired of reading information that is quite pointless.
Met great colleagues in office. They are all very nice people. Except for the part where HR made us wait for the whole morning before finally taking us to our departments to report. Apart from that the part of opening up an account without even knowing what you are into its not good. Now I have to pay RM5 each month deducted off my allowance that can't even cover my monthly expenses.
Everyday seems to be quite different. Since taking the train I have met many school mates and long lost friends on the train and manage to catch up with them before and after work. My church mate took me out for lunch and also one of my colleagues took me out for lunch and brought me around to see Masjid Jamek.
Feels weird being in an environment where you know no one and you don't really know the place but have been there before and it just takes time to get use to things. Have not studied anything for my external papers or do the homework for that matter. Just don't want to read anything after reading the whole day.
I don't know whether I will stay at work till the 14th of May might consider leaving earlier if they don't give me things to do. They are all so so busy and I can't think of what to do. Nevertheless I had some assignments given to me over the week and they kept me occupied.
Don't know how things will go on from here but anyway just going to trust Him in things. Many a times I don't know where He is leading but I know He is there. Honestly, I think its at times as this that I actually keep in contact with HIM the whole day. Glad that He has kept me from being late to work, and safe. Just within one week I had many small prayers answered.
Well gotten my air ticket to Manchester ready. Leaving on the 12th of June flying on Emirates. The week ahead will be quite an eventful one with the interview and test with Sheffield Hallam and the Conference with Landa Cope and Matt Rawlins also MATTA fair is this week. Just for those interested FACON Education Fair on the 13-14th of March at KLCC Convention Center.
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Today is the last free day. The holidays have been good. I really thank God that I didn't start work on the 22nd of February as agreed. One extra week helped me settled my stuff for UK and also get me slightly more prepared for the hectic time ahead. It was a week of finishing all the unsettled business.
Tomorrow will be the first day of the CIMA revision class. Excited but not sure what to expect. Only taking 2 out of the 3 revision papers offered as I doubt I will be able to concentrate in long hours of class. I will be staying in hostel after more than a month away. Wonder what will it be like without home again. Need to really start getting use to it before I will be terribly homesick in UK.
Will be clocking into work this coming Monday in HSBC HQ working in the Compliance Department. Don't ask me what I will be doing now... I hope it will be of benefit to me. This means 5 day work week and 2 days of class. 7 days of work. :P
Guess this means I will be blogging less and also facebooking less. Internet connection will be a scarce once I am back to my routine and definitely time will be a factor I will long for.
Haven't touch floorball in a long while. Miss playing it. Haven't been doing any cardio exercise so much of building my stamina over the holidays. Don't think I will have much time to do any in the next few months.
Can't think of what I haven't complete yet. Need to get it done in the next few hours before signing my life over to College and Work.
I really hope all this is worth it. Studying I mean. I calculated when I graduate I will be paid pittance. All these sacrifices need to be realized in rewards. With the hefty living cost in Malaysia I wonder how I am going to survive. The cruel life cycle that never ends.
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Why must things be complicated?
Lately, I am trying to finish all the paper work and stuff needed for the UK Summer Semester and also the CIMA registration. The amount of forms and hassle you have to go through is horrible.
This is my first time making my passport and I still don't have it yet though I have visited the Immigration Department for 3 times. The lines are so long and they just don't give you all the information at one time. They never mention anything about making a copy of your documents before coming on their website. Then there is no mention that you have to fill in the borang permohonan before taking your queue number and the supposedly smart mykad has so much problem as they can't read it. Therefore even though you are above 12 you still need to carry your birth cert with you. Madness I tell you.
Thankfully I have one week to get it all done. The lady in front of me has been there 3 times too. Once because there is no more number after queuing up so long. The next day system down due to the new system implementation of computer chip in the passport (which is creating problems to the system) and hopefully she got it done today.
I will be going again tomorrow to do my passport. Lots of other things. CIMA registration, bank draft, finances, haven't bought my shoes for work and got clothes for working purposes. Sighz.. so many things on the line.
Best part is Chinese New Year hasn't ended and I have spent nearly RM1,000 in less than a week. Haahaa! Nopes didn't get much Ang Pow to cover up the cost. :( But good that it came in handy.
This Saturday will be the start of the weekend revision classes. I really hope I will be able to pass the papers in one sitting. With the workload up ahead I am going to need all the discipline I have and definitely the concentration and enthusiasm to move ahead.
As, last Sunday was my last week in FSCC it was quite sad that I didn't get to see Pastor Daniel and his family. His daughter is such a dear. Will be church hopping from now till the end of the revision classes in May. However, the last Sunday's message was really good as Pastor Rosalyn Goh spoke. She really inspires me. One person that doesn't resemble the holy holy kinda person but just being normal but yet having God shinning through. Awesome Woman of God! Right person to speak of attitude.
Well, hopefully my life won't get much more complicated than it is now. Rather, I should not make it complicated. Guess I have my way of making things a little complicated.
Just for the fun of it some pictures from the recent Chinese New Year house visitation with the CFers. Great to meet up with long lost friends.
The group that stayed till the end
At the beginning of the CNY visitation
Where the group got smaller
Hilarious photo sessions in Hao Han's car
