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I don't like it when I can't do anything about a problem and can't come up with a solution. Most of the time I am forced into such a situation and I am so frustrated but probably that is the only way I am stopped in my tracks to ponder and really realising that I am not capable and just helpless.
Knowing is one thing but really bringing it from the head to the heart is tough.
Will be moving out to the working world in about less than a year's time. The place where the lofty perks are. Can't believe it but its true that when you are in a place where you are allowed to choose its not easy. So much of me saying God let Your will be done. A struggle that is continuous.
For the past one week I have been thinking about what career I would like to do in the next couple of years and what I would like to achieve. I am suppose to be focusing on passing my CIMA exams (which I tell you I am far from being able to pass at the rate things are going) but my mind is like some little unsettle kid jumping up and about as if I am graduating soon.
I said that I want the Lord's hand in my life and also directing my path but so fast I tell Him what I want practically giving Him the directions on how to lead me instead. Before I even finish my day dream, He reminded me about where is He in all this. Not to mention that day itself during prayer they shared about the exact passage of Lot and Abram and how sometimes what we think is good and right may not be so and how we should not look at others and envy their success because if the Lord is at hand then He is.
Today, I was looking at my friend's facebook profile. She's same age with me and she has a little baby already. Just looking at her baby and her just kick in the reality that I am an adult now. Don't get me wrong I am not jealous nor wanting one anytime soon. Its nice seeing the little girl in her mum's arms but sends the chills down mine. Gosh! A mum at this age? She makes a great one though. Salute her for her courage! Was quite funny when I saw she named her little girl the same name with one of my good friends. =)
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Not updating my blog when I have the inspiration and then saving it till the end of the week really makes it tough to keep the sentiments and also trying to put it in a nut shell as I don't want to write a long post. Will categorize them for today's post!
The Template Institute Workshop 2010
It was really good as I had the opportunity to reflect and also just spend time just allowing God to speak. Love the way Matt and Landa just stirs our set thinkings. To keep it short it was a time where I really felt challenge and yet a very refreshing feeling. Though the mental energy and the spiritual tug was quite a strain. Worse than listening to a lecture by Mr.Chin or sitting in office the whole day.
CIMA,TARC and Work
After a full day's reading I really don't feel like reading anymore when I come back to my room. Quite glad for the first time I finish my homework not the day I am suppose to hand in which is just a 30min work. Took a little more time and effort this time round. I am getting quite use to the work I do. However, I would like to stop work earlier than plan to concentrate on the CIMA exams as I really seem to be struggling. Not sure when I am going to stop though. Feel honored that the TARC bus chauffeurs me to and fro from work everyday. Save RM4 a week by taking the TARC bus instead of the public bus. Apart from the bus being empty and I am the sole passenger the bus uncle's are really nice and sends me to the hostel gate each day therefore I do not have to walk far back to hostel better than the public bus. :) The one thing that I have tried carrying from the things I have learned from the workshop is to trust God in everything and really believing it with my heart even when things around seems to tell me that that is not the reality of life. I find that it helps me appreciate what I am doing at work and also the place I am put in.
UK and beyond
Ok don't give me that stare....I know I should be concentrating on my studies and stuff but well how can you stop a person that has been dreaming of UK ever since she started in secondary school? Manage to talk to Edwin about backpacking and really after calculating my tight budget I might have some extra resources to squeeze in a little Europe trip. What other way to see Europe in budget than through backpacking. So, yeaps my mind has been busy thinking of all the areas I can go visit and explore after my semester in Sheffield ends. Do hope I can meet up with a few friends and maybe get a free stay too. :P Would like to go visit my cousin in Dubai on the way home too so that I can to visit Dubai since its my transit back home.
Well, I really hope that the pounds and the euro will be favourable to me. Don't have much and I really don't want to take anymore than allocated for the trips since I am already debt loaded even before earning a single penny. So for now till the end of my summer semester I am going to be more discipline in my budget so that I can explore the areas I want to. No additional entertainment for now. If you want to donate to me you are more than welcome and definitely much appreciated. By the way if you want to go backpacking as well you can come too. Not looking more than 5 for backpacking. So preferably another 2-3 people only. Let me know if you want to come along. If you are in Malaysia well you can always take a plane and meet us after our summer semester for the trip. =) Will continue scouting for info and all after the CIMA exams though its really something that I am ready to spend the whole week on researching on. Hehe!!
Thats all for now...just too many to write it all out. Just trying to keep the interesting parts in so that you are kept awake and also I will be excited even when I read it back in the future. God bless!! Have a great week ahead people! Thanks for keeping me in prayers.
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Today has been a very refreshing day. Waking up and not having to rush for the public transport and cramp in with smelly human body odour. Managed to get a good morning jog before the rest of the world wakes up.
Took leave today to go for the UK and English Test. Can't express my feelings about UK now. I am excited yet somehow not really looking forward to it. Still in the midst of considering which subject to take in the optional papers and also who to stay with in the UK. I guess I still have time to think about it.
Going for the revision class really makes me feel so overwhelm by the tremendous workload and I must say that last Sunday Service just reassured me on the things I am doing. So many questions flying inside my pea size mind but its great to just know that everything is in control.
Amazing I never thought I would see a Russian Pastor standing on our land let alone ministering to the believers here. Strangely he spoke the message that I needed to hear or rather the thing I was just talking to God about over the week and right before going to church (Attended Tabernacle of David Setapak). Very true that I really need to be like David to face my Goliath. Sometimes when things just come one after another its hard not to fear. David however manage to understand who's with him and that changed everything. So yups last Sunday's message is still ringing in my head.
I took leave for this Friday too so that I can attend The Template Institute Workshop 2010 and I know for sure it would be a good one because I have heard
Matt Rawlins before and his books are simple but yet touching the very core of things. So it will be great to hear from the horses mouth. Another great speaker will be
Landa Cope which is the founder of the Template Institute. I would certainly encourage you to come for the Thursday meeting since its free.
Workshop Details
Thursday: 8pm - 10pm (Open to anyone)
Friday / Saturday : 9am -4pm (Participants RM80)
On another note, sometimes when there is a wound it always takes time to heal and I am glad that it has. (I mean literally and also the unliteral sense) Don't ask!
Going to try to to be optimistic about the CIMA Externals. Classes has not been favourable hopefully in the next few weeks my understanding and knowledge will have good progress. Yeah so if you are free and have time do pray for me and my externals probably the thing I want to get over and done with. Partly because of the cost of the course. CIMA is expensive. :P
Oh and my lil bro pass his driving exams in his first round without paying any kopi tips. Kudos to him!!
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After one week working in a Bank, I really don't have much to say. If I am kept busy I think I actually don't mind working. In fact, apart from the packed train I pretty much enjoy the working experience each time. Sad to say when you have nothing to do and your mind goes idle its really a tough thing to handle especially for me.
I never day dream. Can you imagine I stared at the computer screen but actually nothing goes through. Basically because I was asked to read the Intranet when I have nothing to do and there is just so much you can read. Sick and tired of reading information that is quite pointless.
Met great colleagues in office. They are all very nice people. Except for the part where HR made us wait for the whole morning before finally taking us to our departments to report. Apart from that the part of opening up an account without even knowing what you are into its not good. Now I have to pay RM5 each month deducted off my allowance that can't even cover my monthly expenses.
Everyday seems to be quite different. Since taking the train I have met many school mates and long lost friends on the train and manage to catch up with them before and after work. My church mate took me out for lunch and also one of my colleagues took me out for lunch and brought me around to see Masjid Jamek.
Feels weird being in an environment where you know no one and you don't really know the place but have been there before and it just takes time to get use to things. Have not studied anything for my external papers or do the homework for that matter. Just don't want to read anything after reading the whole day.
I don't know whether I will stay at work till the 14th of May might consider leaving earlier if they don't give me things to do. They are all so so busy and I can't think of what to do. Nevertheless I had some assignments given to me over the week and they kept me occupied.
Don't know how things will go on from here but anyway just going to trust Him in things. Many a times I don't know where He is leading but I know He is there. Honestly, I think its at times as this that I actually keep in contact with HIM the whole day. Glad that He has kept me from being late to work, and safe. Just within one week I had many small prayers answered.
Well gotten my air ticket to Manchester ready. Leaving on the 12th of June flying on Emirates. The week ahead will be quite an eventful one with the interview and test with Sheffield Hallam and the Conference with Landa Cope and Matt Rawlins also MATTA fair is this week. Just for those interested FACON Education Fair on the 13-14th of March at KLCC Convention Center.
