My sister just came back from Singapore yesterday. It's been a week since I last saw her but still kept in touch with her. More like she still has to listen to my daily updates and stories. I hardly listen to hers. (She's a great listener!) It's been quite some time that I got so excited and overjoyed is the word. She really knows me and what I want. I am a person who well, don't really expect much from others. So, I don't hope for stuff or request for stuff. If I want something I work for it on my own. I hardly think of things that I really want. If someone ask me so what do you want I will actually have to think because don't really know 2.

So yups she got me Salming Zeta and a floorball bag. Ya, I know some of you must be thinking what the heck is floorball? Is it of this world? So my advice. Google it out.

It's been what I have been trying to get but never really put it as a priority as it is not a need but a want. Have other stuff in the line that is more important so getting that especially out of the blues is really amazing.

I am blogging in campus. Saw friends which I have not seen for some time. Came back to get my ID which has been confiscated. Really afraid that I will get a nice shelling or get barred from borrowing books for the semester but guess what? The librarian was really nice. In fact, the best part of it all is getting to know another person. We talk about Kajang, studies and even work. So nice of her.

Work on the other hand is really giving me the experience. I do hope that I will be able to say at the end of the day that its worth it because right now I wonder why in the world do I bother to continue. Anyway, I am sure HE has something up His sleeves in stored so well I will be patient and grow from this.

Yesterday night was FSCC first CG and needless to say it was SUPERB! I think its right to call it connect group because I felt connected to the people there. Its a good feeling. I do hope that this won't just be a temporary thing since we are all knew but we will continue to notice people who are left out of the circle and bring them in so they too will feel at home and welcomed.

A little thing I got from today's devotion speaks much of my life now. =)

Have you ever wondered how people can spend so much time doing things that doesnt really matter? I remember a book written by Philip Yancey talking about the people in the gym. Well, I was reminded of it in the evening. I would say life without meaning would absolutely spell horrible. I am glad I have a purpose no matter how mundane life can be some times.

Was totally ripped off today. The shop says RM9.90 for a haircut and guess how much I paid for it? RM25. If its done by a professional I have no complaints. Poorly cut. All because I could not wait for an hour at my usual place. The saloon which I normally go to is just opposite but it was so packed. there wasnt even a small place where you can sit. Now I understand why. Just needed to keep my hair in order. Was getting a little way out of control.

Went for my first RPM class today. Glad that we ended slightly before an hour. Who said cycling is an easy thing? I have no stamina. Arghhhh.... Today started off really interesting. My little brother forgot to bring his bag to school. Skipped floorball today and I must say I did accomplish more errands. CIMA Business Challenge is on the waiting list. I need to have an open mind for fresh ideas to pour in. Wisdom and knowledge are the things I need. Matured thinking :P

Today is my first time going to FGA alone. Ever since I join FGA my 'tai ka jie' is always there and she has gone across the seas and left her poor 'mei mei' alone. (She doesnt call me that tho). Glad that she is having a good time there. However the good thing is I manage to go for a swim before service today as she was not with me. (Apparently she gets ready much longer than me, can never make it in time for church if go swimming with her)

Just came back from a hike. Well, its been quite a while since I last climbed. This time round instead of seeing the sunrise I caught the sunset. For the very first time I saw the sun and then the darkness. Usually its walking in the dark then there's a certain hope that you are looking for that the sun will rise. The view as usual is totally awesome. He does it so well. Talking about Pablo Picaso or Michael Angelo, HE beats them flat. He paints the skies and the scenery that really touches the heart and leaves a certain imprint on it.

I was sitting down and the picture of a computer game came to mind. Its those games that you know you play where you collect power or life or coins for points. Yup you might have played that. Not those shooting, blood splattering games. Well, I was reminded how life is like a game. Of course I am not talking about the part where you can bang the wall, fall off a clift and then come back all in one piece.

Is like we all have a starting point in the game and then we go through the game or life and along the journey is really all about knowing the right move and walking at the right spots. If you walk in an area that has no coins or power packs or anything you get nothing. If you have seen a child playing one of this games you would have notice that there are times when they stumble upon it as it was right in the middle of their path.

I really want to thank God for that. Imagine if you will only get something if you know which path to walk into. What a disaster it would be. See it does however mean if you already know the ins and outs of the path you will know which path to walk that will give you more benefits. Knowing the right path will be more rewarding but HIS mercies are so abounding that even when you walk on the not so rewarding path you get some along the way. Isn't that comforting? =)

This one week of school holidays is really good. Can wake up slightly later and sleep much later. Tied down with deadlines. Sis going to Singapore in a few hours time and the other sis busy with applications that will determine her future career.

Today I learn what it meant to be in the fast lane and one thing for sure I don't think I really like it. Nearly puke. On a normal road with so many cars 200mph is certainly not a joke. Guess this is where prayer comes in. Needless to say He watches over His children and that is why I am alive to tell the story.

I thank God that there were many cars on the road that help to reduce the speed. It made me think about my life. How sometimes HE puts little obstacles on the road so that I wouldn't speed through like a mad hatter and actually take the time to take life a little slower. I realised how when there was free way you can just speed through without having the breaks in life which of course when you meet in an accident would cause more damage due to the impact and how having those small little "so called annoying disturbance" help to keep us safe.

Well now I can proudly say I have sat in a car that drifts and drives way above the speed limit. Ok I guess proudly has been wrongly used. But has certainly entered my books of one of a kind experience.

The few outings in 2008 and 2009

(from the top left : Broga Hill Hike, Jonathan's birthday bash, TSF CG Outing, A Crazy little thing called love production, Media Prima Visit, Klang Mamak)

(From the top left : Alpha Last session in TARC, AGM 2008, Checking Golden Sands PD out, CPR 2008 - Peace Haven Gentings, Christmas Nite Fundraising 2007, Kirtash 2007)

Dear Father,

How You listen to the simplest of prayer. How You expect honesty and just being me in prayer. No pretends! No icing coating! Just ME. I thank You for that.

Love

-Your Daughter-

I am suppose to be having my holidays. Got a job which the Lord has provided. No complains. Tough? Its tough. But I have a tough God don't I?

Reading through Deborah a character in the Bible showed me what it means to come to know God as the true and living one. You can't be in the midst of society that is turning wayward and more so when you are a lady living in those days but see how she stood up and not only made a difference. She was confident in the things that she did and knew her calling exactly where it should be. My ... my what courage she had. That's faith indeed! She had wisdom that everyone came to her. Male and Female. She was probably what I would called D person of those days. Like how Orprah is now but even better! Interesting to know she was also a wife as well.

So many things for me to learn. "You will guide me won't You?"

Obedience one thing I am struggling with to obey YOU when everything seems wrong, weird and impossible. Guess that is why You are called the God of the impossible. =)

Am I proud and glad that I have You. Thanks! Words can never say enough....

I am currently reading a book entitled 'A woman God can use.' Hurt my ankle and my body still aches after superman style on the court so I read my book. Well, from the title you would probably think its for women only. Strangely enough I thought it was going to tell me what to do and all but not so. The author takes several characters, all women of course to discuss. I was reading about Rahab today.

Anyway, back to the topic. It was interesting to see how God can use someone of the no status in society to be on the Hall of Faith that is recorded in Hebrews. I was drawn into the part that Rahab was not part of the Israelites but she made it into the line where the Messiah comes from.

The first mention of her in the bible didn't sound as though there was any hope for her and she was doom to be destroyed like the rest of them in the city of Jericho but because at the split of second she made the right decision and decided to help the spies, she and not only herself but ALL those that were in the house when the Israelites came were spared.

To me I was reminded once again about the many 'split second' decisions I had to make in life. Often it seems to be the wrong ones. Those decisions that has to be made showed what she was built off. She was rooted in something that is not off her culture. She stood against her people. When everyone would think that what she did was a serious risk she took it for she had faith that the Israelites God was the God of the heaven and earth.

I wonder how I would respond if I am in that situation would I change from being a 'prostitute' to be one of the 2 women mention in the Hall of faith? Certainly shows how God forgives our sins and using what seems hopeless, useless and broken to glorify His name. Question is we each have that question to answer. Are we willing to take the risk and believe the Lion of Judah? Question only each person can answer on their own but is a question that will change your life and your entire world.

Its been quite a while before hanging out with friends. Just letting loose (played at the arcade won sweets) and away from work environment and talking with people of the same wave length certainly makes a difference. Nice of the guys to come out and go gila with me. Got lost in mines couldn't find the exit door. sigh.... all the exercise certainly made me really hungry but before the food could fill the stomach I had body aches everywhere and my head was throbbing.

Well, its worth the effort because I had free dinner at the food and tea shop in Jusco Cheras Selatan courtesy of 'Sok Sok' (The Best!) . It was a nice warm and cosy outing as the group was small. One thing I really appreciate is the friendship with good company and I learn never go for and IT auction. A waste of precious time but I guess if its not because of my brother persuading me to go for the auction in mines I would not have had the chance to go 'kai kai'. Hehe thumbs up to my family pet for taking good care of me and entertaining me but this species is not good with Sweet Land games.

Was talking with Wei Mun about missions and all. She is one encouraging person. Each time I chat with her there is this spur to do more for God and not to give up. Somehow though I am like so far away from her standard in terms of service I can offer to HIM and the faith I have in HIM she never makes me feel of a lower level just continuously encouraging and making me see things in a different way. You can really see God's love in her. Can't believe I have known her for such a short time but when we meet up yesterday it seems as though we were long time friends. I guess this is the privilege of being in HIS family. You have much in common. Speaking of which we do! Cockroach, House Cleaning, and many more.

Read a quote very impressive 'Forget yourself for others and others will not forget you!'

Yesterday in church, well I thought I was in for a long sermon as it has been a long day and I was rather tired. However, suddenly during praise and worship I was reminded that God speaks at all times so I silently prayed that God I want a word from You today. Speak through the speaker during his sharing and true enough God is a God who hears.

Pastor Malcom spoke on seasons in life. To me there are a lot of things I would say that is hard to give up. I guess if it was a bad habit that I have doing well it was still understandable but what about something I have been doing for God? Not so easy to let go. But he touch on the exact things that I was struggling with. Letting go.... to the things that God gave initially but its stifling my growth now.

Never knew so much about Eagles. Certainly gave me a better understanding of the analogy when the bible uses the Eagle. Oh! when will I learn so that I can renew my strength and run and not be weary, walk and not faint.

Psa 103:5 who satisfies your mouth with good; your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

Isa 40:31 but those who wait on Jehovah shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

Imagine the Eagle shedding its feathers. Shedding feathers that can still be used, cannot be used. It just shed off all at a point in its life so that it can grow new ones so that it soar higher and further. Breaking through a new horizon in its life.

God thank you for reminding me of that season in life where I have to let go off things in life. Good and bad so that You can bring me to a new horizon.

I will trust You because I know that You will not fail me nor will You dissapoint me.