Wow! What a week it has been. A weekend of change. Back to Sunday Morning Worship. Anyway, I have been wanting to blog about FSCC but I have been awfully busy with work. Funny that its suppose to be part time job or internship but I am really getting a lot of experience. The strange thing its called Admin and Accounts Assistant. Hehe! Not sure I am assisting who. I'll stop talking about work and leave it for the next round.
I remembered it was last saturday when Pastor Daniel was sharing in FSCC after saturday evening service that how I came to this decision flashed back. It was then, that I had a sudden inspiration to write it down.
Recalling back my sis was the first to share with me about this. She had been keeping it away from me sometime, telling me here and there but not sure whether to tell me or not because pastor told her not to tell anyone about it yet. However, it was not much later she told me as she felt that it involved me and I should know about it.
If I remembered correctly it was somewhere in August or September 2008. I was very much passionate then to go out and to get down with my shorts and t-shirt instead of those formal attire to the ground. I just finished reading the book Ignite and was all pumped up. She came in and told me about it and the minute I heard the name Ignite I was like WOW! My sis didnt even ask me to come or anything the question post was what should she do. I was like go ahead. GO!
Then after awhile there was no news as there was some problems but then after a while she ask me again how then. You leh? I was in like my usual mood anything lar. You go lar. Doesnt affect me also. I can still go on my own to FGA KL.
Somehow or another last year was not one of my up years. A year that has taught me a lot. To learn to turn to HIM and to rely on HIM. So well, the thought about going or staying kept playing at my mind even in class at home and even church.
I kept it in prayer. Very much. My heart was in the TARC CG. I love the TARCians. Somehow I feel its my calling to be there for them to see the CG grow and to care for the TARCians. What more when the new ones are still not regular. So to me leaving to FSCC was something quite hard. I don't really know the people going over or the people staying for that matter but I get to be in my CG. A place where I belong I guess
It was not till late that HE has to teach me that its the people I am suppose to love and take care. Not to look at which campus they are from but to ALL. I know HE will raise someone up to take care of the peoples of TARC. But then how am I suppose to fit in, in a place where there is not even a CG for me? One thing that haunt me was I was not going to be part of the big plan after all it was about the other Uni's and not mine. (Who lar is going to do something for my college? Raise someone Lord) In time I learned to let HIM take charge take lead. I was reminded once again about the passion I had a few months back.
I have always wanted to reach out. To touch the community. To get down on my hands to the ground and toil. No more standing from a far but to be with the community. I remembered Pastor Daniel's purpose for opening FSCC and I know that this is what I wanted to do, where I want to be and where HE is calling me to. Somehow the Lord loves to put me in places where I am less comfortable. (I tend to rely more on Him in those period also)
Seriously, I am excited. I want to help out and do much. I don't want to be all warm in my sit I want to get out and begin breaking ground. Funny think was when my sis ask me so where do you want to serve in I don't know how to answer and when the list came round I didnt put my name anywhere. Anywhere. Honestly I just want to be part of the story to be a tool used and that will make me glad. (Scared about the distance and that I won't be able to commit when sem starts only)
Today was the first service of FSCC and I must say its great! Not the numbers but that the people that are worshiping HIM together with you really meant it from their hearts. (My prayer is that the passion and fire won't die down or remain stagnant but expands even more) Love the small group setting. Get to know people more personally and love to be able to spend time playing with the children. Hehe! Just love them. =) Can't wait to see where HE is taking us.
Lord, I am in awe of the things You do. Excited and all out for it. I am ready to take on new things. Don't just let us be all cosy and huddled up but lets see things shaking and taking off. Lord, do as You please. Remember me in Your plans. I am in!!
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