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There are 2 things which I wanted to share. =) Well will fill u in on that if I remember next weekend. However just felt that I should share about what the Lord has been doing in my life. HE has been ever faithful. Sometimes just like my sis said today that going to church can be quite creepy because the messages spoken just hit the exact spot and what more if its for weeks on end. The passages, the questions, the prayers I make the Lord seem to reaffirm them on Sunday service or even through just gathering with His people.
You know the things I have said to the Lord is that my land is desolate. Dried. Struggling so hard but no results on end. Its like everything I do, I do to my best yet the outcome just seems to show the other way around. I guess its been so ever since the ending of last semester. I just felt I have reached that breaking point and I know the Lord has been carrying me through but today the message spoken was so clear that the LORD Restores my soul. One thing which Pastor Rhoden spoke which really hit was it's not true that when we come to the Lord we have to give up things rather the Lord adds value to what I already have.
It's amazing how I have always this picture that I am a sheep but I forgot what a sheep is all about and when he was just going through the list of the description of a sheep it's just so me. Slow, filled with parasite, no honing skills, can't fend for myself, and.. can't remember what else. But when I saw the list it just shout one thing Useless. The amazing part is that I always have a different idea of a sheep because my actions seems to speak so. I shy away when my imperfectness is shown. I try to cover it up before the Shepherd but I am a sheep and that is who what I am. Useless. Amazing thing is how the Shepherd reacts to the sheep. It talks about how the Shepherd does everything. When the sheep falls the Shepherd picks it up. The sheep knows not how to find pastures and the Shepherd is the only one that can guide the sheep to it. (Psalm 23)
How often in my life that my Shepherd seems to be my life, the circumstances around me, the plans. What a blessing is it to have a Shepherd who cares. If only I will let Him be my shepherd and not wander off. When Pastor spoke about his testimony he shared that when we plan we realise that it just doesn't go our way and the doing things our way doesn't seem to bring satisfaction. How true! The night before that 'Ah Pa' was just saying to me 'you and your plans'. 'Ah pa' always laughs at me because I am one who likes to lay out my life dictating it with all my timeline, my schedule. Amazing how he reminds me that the times I have been planning the Lord seems to just turn it all around. He always tell me to just go with the flow kinda thing which of course I can't stand his laid back attitude. :P Sorry Pa! He knows it anyway coz I always tell him so but there is much truth in what he tells me.
Anyway, Its so true that when the Lord restores He will give back what the locust have taken. I need not worry, I need not be anxious, I need not fret. I do need to be in competition with the people around me. I don't have to fight for my spot in things. I don't need to hide what I have. I need not be afraid that others will take advantage of me for the Lord is my avenger. I will trust in Him.
(Taken from today's devotion)
We are never to view people or organizations as competition. The Bible says that God has already assigned our portion. We need not have to manipulate outcomes.
"LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance" (Ps 16:5-6).
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Yipee! My new sticks have arrived. Okay! Don't give me that stare. I know I just got one this year. Its not even a year and I am getting another one. Its call passion. I guess.. See who has joined the family =)
The limited Edition Platinum Playmaker
The Salming Varsity for my little brother
The spare grip which will come in handy when it becomes unfit due to our sweaty hands
and last but not least. The spare blade (Salming Quest 7) for my current Salming Zeta which is having a Salming Purple Haze blade. With the new turquoise blade it will match the stick more. :P Although I still prefer the purple haze blade. Very "yeng".
A loyal Salming Fan!
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Decided to attend a financial planning talk instead of going for risk and control strategy class. Well, pretty much what I expected from the talk but was really trying to skip class actually so I didn't mind.
To be honest I like the idea of financial planning or even doing that. I believe that people need it but the thing is presentation wise? I don't like the idea of the long "fai wah" talk. Which they term it necessary and motivational.
Why must good things never come with a whole package? Sighz....
Well one thing the speaker said was money. I agree money is important. Who doesn't! However, I believe strongly there is so much more to money. You know I guess Mr.Clement has really made an impression on me. Before this I never really enjoyed his "grandmother" story this semester he talks less on that. Many of his ideologies I may not agree with but then who is perfect and gets it right all the time. Not me of course.
However, one thing he says which really sticks to me is that money is not everything. Isn't that so true. Nor is knowledge everything. Not to be racist or anything but the Chinese people really needs to see that money and education is good but not the ultimate thing we should be chasing for. It is just a mere tool to improve quality of living but the only thing we should be achieving. There is certainly more to life than this.
You may say I don't have life but I can say that at least I know the things I do has meaning. Ultimately, I believe that friendship, experience and truly getting to know the One counts the most.
Not asking you to agree with me. Just sharing my thoughts.
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Today, I decided to for once hang out with people out of my usual group of friends. I can't believe it. They seem to have such a distorted perspective of who I am. I am not a study kind of a person. Its so obvious. I really like to play and just mingle with people. For 2 years I have been in the same class but I have never ventured out and mix with the other people which of course didn't occur to me till today. Gosh!
I think what they say over lunch really stop me in my tracks and just reevaluate my life. They say I am a very busy person. They seem to have so much time for everything. Well, I am learning to juggle for balance. Some said "Hey how come you are here? Why joining the sub-prime group?". Seriously I went Huh? and then they explain "You know prime means top and sub-prime means not above the mark." I was like WHAT in the world??? I am like the bottom one in my group of friends and just trying to stay afloat. Just because I am in that group makes me like them.
Furthermore, some said that I am very busy in CF and said that Christians always very busy but still find time to be able to perform in studies. BUT..... its not true. So many Christians don't perform in their studies. We fall below the mark all the time. I know I can testify to that. What about being busy with 'Church' and 'Christian Activities' has it become an excuse we Christians give to others?
I don't remember telling this group of friends anything about CF or even using it as an excuse. What made them have such an idea I wonder? However to me its not true that CF is the main reason I don't have time with CF especially since its the afternoon. Something needs to get sorted out here. However, I did enjoy hanging out with them. Mostly all guys. At least they help me rethink.
Strategic Management coursework results was released today. Mr.Chin's method was a little harsh but I did like that he gave feedbacks so detailed because I feel that our lecturers hardly do that and if we want to learn we need to know where to improve on.
After the test the other day I was very disappointed. Actually hoping for only 1 out of 6 marks. That was how bad it went. Before the test I actually just hoped to get 3 but after the test I was like 1 is already very good because I didn't do half of the question paper.
I really must say that God has indeed been merciful and gracious to me. No, HE doesn't have to bless me all the time and I am not expecting it. Well, when the he gave me my paper he must have thought I was nuts. I went like Wow! not bad not bad... Trust me I hardly do that. Usually is like oh.... sighz... kinda thing. But really I was leaping for joy. Not because I got perfect score but I did much better than expected. Its like a 200% increase. God just doesn't stop there, the compliments given meant a world to me. Thank You Lord =)
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Its been raining non stop. If its a holiday I would most probably enjoy it. The weather cool and nice. However, it's not nice walking in the rain everyday to college. Freezing in the lecture halls and not able to play floorball. Worse still the water in hostel is so cold. Quite a torture each time I think of bathing. To make matters worse, the hostel connection seems to have a direct relationship with the weather. When the weather is fine the line is fine and vice versa.
Going to stop subscribing for the internet connection after this month. Assignments going to be over and its just not worth it I suppose.
Well, just to shout!! Finish SFM!!! Yeah!
and 3 more 2 go. =(
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People say if you have expressed it out it will be much better. So here it goes...
A total disaster!!
Anyway moving from discouragement to praise.
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Ahhh..... tempted to start the day with everything that is up in my mind but decided not to.
Thanks Lord for the wonderful day thus far and for the hours up ahead!
Trusting in You
To my room mate for 2 years. Congratulations! Sorry couldn't make it for your convocation. Thanks for the lovely chocolates from UK though!
(Third from left)
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My internet connection is finally back! Thanks to Mr.Tang =)
Anyway last Wed when and watch MPO with the rest of the hostelians and I actually love the music. However wish there was less plucking. Hehe! Could here the sound of New York Town. 27 of us turn up for the performance below is a group photo. (Not a complete one)
I watched as the conductor looked over to the violin section, then the percussion, then there was a seemingly insignificant lady standing way back in the corner waiting to play her one or two notes on a chime-looking instrument. "Who would even notice if she didn't play her instrument?" I wondered to myself. "The conductor would," said the still voice in my spirit.
An orchestra is a great picture of the way the Body of Christ should operate. It is made up of different people with different gifts, all being led by the one Great Conductor, telling us when to use our gift in the right time. I am sure the lady in the back of the room who only plays a few notes must think she doesn't measure up to the great violinist who sits right up close to the conductor.
However, imagine if you slowly removed each member of the orchestra, one at a time. At first you may not notice any difference without a trained ear. But as you remove each member of the orchestra, you will begin to miss the powerful and melodic sound of many instruments playing together. Finally, when all but a few of the instruments are removed, you notice a big difference in the sound and the void left from key instruments.
Imagine if these instruments tried to go out and play songs all by themselves. Imagine if the tuba tried to play a solo. Or the oboe did the same. You get the idea.
Every member of the Body of Christ matters. Every job matters to God and contributes to our great Conductor's grand plan to fulfill His purposes on the earth. Your contribution matters to God and has no hierarchy of importance.
Play your instrument to the glory of God in unison with the other instruments God has raised up for His purposes.
(My Son, haahaa! He kept Mum company) =) Thanks Son!
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[Continuation]
The storm that came
The storm that left
However I wish another storm has passed. The earlier storm could be rectify quite quickly and things could be back to normal. What about the other storm? Why does He do such things I wonder. I said I cannot bear it. I am not able to "But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness'"
I am glad that before I did something I should not have the Lord reminded me through last Sunday's message. I have to stop trying to take things into my own hands and allow HIM to be the one in control. Although it was hard trying not to since it has been on mind for sometime. Finally the peace that I am on the right track.
[Pictures of the outcome] - The week we were suppose to present (11 Nov 09)
and the week we actually presented (18 Nov 09) in the middle is our FDM lecturer
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My body screams for rest. Almost every part seems to be working in a slightly slower speed. This was how my week was.
Tues
LONG group discussion rush off for CF and back to the desk.
Wed
7am awake. Continue draining my brain juice. Classmate came over at 11 something in the night revamp business plan idea and start from scratch till 4am
Thurs
7.20am cock crows. Half dead. Trapped in the room. Left for a total non beneficial class 2 hours and it was back in prison. Got along the whole gang to be trapped in the dungeon this time round. Work round the clock.
Fri
Passed out for about an hour around 6am. Energy level slight recharged. Finished up the last few bits. Cleaned up the palace chamber and rushed through the King's royal budget calculation 15 minits before presenting to His Majesty. Attain the tickets for the Royal Ball next wednesday. Finally got back to the countryside at 5pm and plug in to the power supply for 2 hours and I am up and running.
P/s Although we only had 4 days to complete the Business Plan but I must say I have learned much through reading. Enjoyed the work! Was the last of such an adventure with the gals. It was a GREAT reunion to the Awesome 5. The latest addition to the gang was with us to for this assignment.
[To be continued] The storm that came to E10 on Thurs Evening and left Fri Morning.
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I have always been looking forward to the final semester in college. Pretty much something I have been wondering what it would be since I was still a child. Guess nothing much to shout about. Since the semester till now (week 5) I have been stress out just thinking how I am going to cope with the workload. Its nearly double the work I had last semester. What more with the floorball league going on and also new responsibilities undertaken. Just trying to remain afloat. How I am actually glad with the busyness keeps me from thinking about things that does no benefit. Don't have time to stop to complain or to even think about the pain.
What this academic semester looks like
- Week 5 - Come up with a Business Plan (F&B Industry) for Financial Decision Management (FDM)
- Week 6 - Presenting the Business Plan (FDM) , Risk and Control Strategy Test 1 (RCS)
- Week 7 - Strategic Management (SM) Mid Term Test
- Week 8 - 2 Analysis Report of Companies 6000 words for Strategic Financial Management (SFM)
- Week 10 - Business Plan (Airline Industry) for FDM, Analysis Report 25 pages for SM, RCS Test 2 , Analysis Report of 2 Companies (RCS)
- Week 11 - Presentation of the Business plan (FDM), Presentation of the report (SM)
Can't believe what external consultant do in 3 months or even more we are suppose to do in 5 days. Not to mention the heavy tutorials they load us with to present in class. Looking forward to Week 12. Hopefully can get some studying done to prepare for finals and also the upcoming external exams. Tips to those considering studying CIMA in TARC. Join us if you are looking for experience to work in a pressured environment. Lecturers are sure to give you a glimpse of what you get out there in the corporate world.
