The saying that every cloud has a silver lining is very true. However, its not always easy to notice the silver lining in the midst of the cloud. The person that is able to see that is one truly blessed person. I am one who most often cant and even at times after the entire episode I may see it or may not still. Sometimes I wish I will be less affected by things around me. Easier said then done but I am glad that I have a big family. HE certainly knows I need the BIG family to keep me in tact. Easier to get my thoughts distracted and focus on things that are more important in life.

Anyway recapping my time at home. Enjoyed the moments being at home. As Mon comes its back to full swing. Feel a little detached. Back to where I was, William's first gym outing. Conclusion : Although the poor fella had aches, I have to say I am quite impress he can actually keep up. Congrats Williams!

Going to miss R2's and Frank's class. =) Already missing Floorball. 2 weeks its a long time.

Connect Group last night was good. Terance makes a good leader though he said we girls bully him. The new CG structure stimulates my thinking. Good way of conducting.

I really loved the badminton game AMA had last Tues. Though I actually thought of giving it a skip since it was pouring. No regrets. However, (YXL) had to keep laughing at my now rusty badminton skills. The swim after the rain with Levina was good. Very refreshing.

Other notes : The Car is back alive!

Holidays are over and college has started. Well class for the week not too bad. For now, I am looking forward to the semester. Risk management, Integrated Management, Financial Reporting and Moral & Etika. New system for this semester with a 40% weightage for coursework. This would mean more consistent studying and preparation throughout the semester.

Can't believe it first lecture and we have an assignment thrown at us. Anyway, I have decided to pick YTL Cement as the company I will be doing on. Well, little did I know that this would lead to life lessons. I just can't believe my eyes. Tan Sri Dr Francis Yeoh. I've heard so much about him praying when things doesnt get through but I didn't know that he certainly walks the talk.

Gosh! This really puts me to shame. Was doing some research and happen to stumble upon the press release for YTL and almost every single article is about giving credit to God. Every single good thing, he gives praise and thanksgiving to God. Not to mention he threw a thanksgiving bash. Yeah! I know that every good thing comes from HIM and I do give thanks (in private) but this is really what is all about. So much of me and being ashamed (thinking people will think I am weird). This is a big tycoon in the business world praising HIM in everything that he does. Really something that I have to start putting into practice for HE certainly deserve all the glory and honor.

Quick note on college. Its great being back. Toilets in the hostel has to be repaired though. Apart from that its time for my stomach to get use to the TARCBACTERIA (my mum named it). Hopefully not like last year after my break which took me nearly a month to get used 2.

Holidays are soon over. Final week. Quite sad that I don't have the car to enjoy my holidays to the fullest. However, grateful that is the final week and not earlier. My list of things that I was looking forward too is nearly completed. Down to the last 2. Have to finish whatever unfinished things I have before sem starts. Wish holidays were longer. Its time to start unpacking my boxes back to the place I will call home for the next half a year. Anyway, Worship Central here I come.

Is weird I want to make and impact in the things I do but feeling an impact in like literally is not very nice.

Just came back from the police station. Spent my whole morning there.

My usual Saturday routine going down to get supplies. Well, I don't like to talk bad about the Police Force because I am quite a patriotic person but what can you say when the truth is they are quite a corrupt bunch of people.

I guess, you must be wondering what is going on. I was involved in the accident at about 9.20am today. 3 cars involved and I so happened to be the middle car. Driving in my little but yet loyal kancil with my younger sister. The car in front a Gen 2 driven by a Malay lady and at the back an Indian Persona driver with 2 ladies.

Now, I have already break for quite far off. As usual trying to save petrol so I don't step on the accelerator when I am reaching the traffic light. Driving at only 40kmph. Suddenly from the back I felt a loud bang and I flew to the front and I was so afraid the car in front would be knocked by me I pressed my break even harder which saved the car in front from getting any huge damages other than a few scratches. Things in the car went flying. My sis and myself just felt so dizzy and then we heard a rude knock on our door asking us to go down to the police station which is just next to us.

Thank God it happened near the police station. The traffic police so happen to be standing around the scene quickly came to our rescue. My car which is totally wrecked could not be started again so the 2 kind traffic policeman stop the oncoming traffic and one helped pushed the car to the side. Now the thing they told me was rather sweet he ask me whether I was ok and told me not to worry cause its not my fault.

Well, to cut the long story short when it came to the police report I only said 2 things Tesco Kajang, Sg Chua and the whole report was written by the police. The Malay lady told me not to worry as its not my fault though initially when she got down from the car she said quite rudely "kenapa break rosak ke?" However, her nice sweet talk all stop there she and the other Indian party conspired together.

At the Investigation Sergeant's room a new story came up saying I bang her first then the back car bang me. Oh! What a liar. However, her statements kept changing. When the Sergeant ask her how many times you felt the car bang you. She answered not sure. Then she said erm 3 or maybe more but at least 2. 5 times he ask her the same question.

Anyway, he knew I was not in the wrong yet he wanted to summon me as well. Just say you want bribe. Wouldn't that be easier? I don't know how the whole thing went on as my Dad's friend actually was there with us helping us through the whole thing. My dad came a little later and well we went back with my Dad. I give up! Let God do justice.

I just want to thank God for my Dad, his friends and ya thank GOD for watching over me. No injuries just the impact felt. No worries. I am fine. Not so easy to get rid of me. :P

I need You now

More than ever before

My heart longs for You

Your love's what I crave

Its You I adore

So I reach out to heaven

with my arms open wide

Come fill me again Lord

renew me inside

Come again Lord

wash over me

Come again Lord

restore new passion to me

Cause I'm down on my knees

and I'm praying praying please

restore new passion to me

This theme has been popping up in my quiet times with Him. Hmm.... still thinking if there is anybody I have not forgiven. However, to all who I owe an apology, I would like to say I am sorry if I have wronged you in anyway.

A big thank you to the church that took us Salibandiens under their wings the week we were in Penang for Youth Wave. Their hospitality and their love just overflows. Praise God for these saints.

(Cui Lin, Deswyn, Yi Lin)

THE AWESOME TRIO

Don't know how to thank these people. Yi Lin has been awesome just coming and making us feel at home. Cui Lin, so much to say about her. Apart from her lost of directions she is D bomb! AWESOMENESS. She really has one BIG heart. Can't believe this gurl just takes all of us and just making us feel that Penang is our own home. Her warmness just can't be explained. The Wan? Yups! He is the one and only Deswyn Wan. Extremely thoughtful. He goes to great lengths to ensure our stay in Penang is the Top service. Gentleman? Certainly is. Don't know what more to say about this brother. The gestures and hospitality shown is one of the best I've known. Thanks!

Not to mention Elaine aka Ping. The new addition to our KL family that came to our lack of transportation rescue. Just as awesome.

Finally my work ordeal for the year is complete. I must say I do enjoy work. Getting myself all tangled up in things and sorting the mess out. Well, as I was considering whether I should work this year or just do something else I decided to not leave things in my hands but place it in the one who holds me together. Even up to where to work and etc was prepared by HIM.

So there goes mid Feb till 30th April, a steward for HIM in a small company which I would say I would have no desire nor likes for it.

Ok, I am going to be honest here. I have lots to complaint about work and my boss but I am deeply ashamed by my attitude on this. After all, I know HE called me here. I should have kept an open mind and look to HIM asking Lord what do You have instored for me today from the very beginning. It was only during the last few weeks in office that I came to this realisation and I saw that He was moulding me more than trying to change the surrounding environment. I really am grateful that He is one forgiving Father.

My boss is one who really cares and always praises me. My collegues are just adorable and they kept me thru. Even the guys at the site, though they don't work in the office always drops by my room to say hi. What more can you ask?

The experience? Invaluable. When I look back, who at my education level gets to run a company? Do the entire accounts? Filing system? Recommend and introduce new things to a company? Why wasn't my eyes open any earlier?

Yes I have to admit. The one thing I really dislike was the smoke that refuses to leave the room. It gets trapped in. The experience gain here certainly is one very different one compare to my previous work encounters. I thank the Lord that through this, the one thing I really discovered is myself.

I just want to thank my family members for being there with me thru out my entire working experience supporting me through. Especially my beloved mum. Also want to thank the family guardian and my ever faithful girl partner. Not to forget everyone that has prayed for me too.

Will post about my 1st of May outing and also Penang trip later. Hehe!