At first, dreams seem impossible, then improbable, and eventually inevitable.
Its really funny to see how people fight to get a place to squeeze in the train to work and on their way home. Its a daily routine. It really get on my nerves not at the people's behaviour but the lack of planning in the city. I can only understand why this people are so frustrated. Imagine, I have only been working for about 7 months and I dread taking the train what more this people who has been using the train services for many years. Plus I am sure that the conditions a few years back was not like what we have today it would have been worse off. With the frequent breakdowns and pressure for work is amazing that one still survives and their sanity in tact.
My morning train rides (an hour when everything comes on time) have been time that I let my imagination run a little wild. Sometimes, when you feel like "This is enough, no more, I am going to quit" a new idea births. How long I will survive in the commercial line only God can tell. I have my eyes set on studying once again and doing something on my own. Its true sometimes you wonder whether the work that you do the whole day (literally 11-12 hours a day) is something that makes a difference. Something that counts. Something that makes an impact to society's welfare. For me at times, I really wonder whether all these paper work is necessary! Have human beings make life even more complicated than it should be?
Day in and out I just look at the faces of the hundreds of people rushing to work. Whether caught in the jam for hours or whether being stucked in the train. Then comes the office workload. Sometimes things may get out of hand especially when you have more than you can chew at one time and things just seem so overwhelming. Then on the way home you go through the same routine once again and the next day the whole new routine is reset once again. When weekend approach you try to make the most of so called lost time during the week and you try to catch up on house chores, things you have wanted to do, hobbies you want to pursue and etc. Seriously,this for the next 30 over years? Is a no wonder people become lost when the retired. 30 years of packed routine and suddenly all the free time in the world.
Well, shall not go on any further. But do give it a thought. Through this it really dawn upon me that you really need to do something that you like to do, something that you are willing to wake up every morning for, something that even the train or the traffic jams cant stop you. Money is important but far beyond that satisfaction and being fulfilled in life really matters.
Then again, if you have failed once don't give up. Pick up and keep running. As I said in my last post, sometimes we end up doing things we do not ask for. It somehow ends up on our plate and we have to swallow every bit of it. (could be because of family, money, or the economy) Don't lose hope as a new day awaits each day for something better. A change perhaps.
Unrelated to the above
I met up with Anita, a friend I met when I was backpacking in Europe (really want to go backpacking again!). She's an Australian but now living in the UK but has an Italian passport. Well, it was nice to have her down in KL. Only managed to squeeze a quick lunch with her but well then again better than nothing.
Last week met up with another friend who's Nigerian and now studying in the UK. How weird sometimes how people end up in different parts of the country. Anyway, also another quick time with her.
Manage to meet up with a few of my school mates. Edwina, Fuk Fui and Rachael last weekend as well. Only manage a 2 hour plus meet up and it was time to head home. Seeing another friend on Friday just to pass something was also that I can squeeze in.
Time has become so so short. Nothing gets done. I guess, I should stop volunteering for stuff till time becomes something that I have. I really do feel bad when I choose to take up something but unable to go all out due to circumstances because I usually choose to do something that I really want to do and not being able to see it come to pass is disappointing.
Nevertheless, I appreciate meeting people up especially in small groups where we can just catch up with each other. It brings a sense of familiar ground. Do miss school and college times. Working life is cool but nothing can be better that being in a whole area of people your age, people who are like minded and the freedom of moving around.
Speaking of which, I am totally out of shape and the shape night run is around the corner. Hopefully I don't collapse and need paramedic assistance. Time to get the running shoes out.
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