May is here
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Jess, Sok Ling and me back in 2006

It was a good meet up session with one of my craziest ever college mate (None other than Jess). True to itself she manage to get the entire restaurant attention. She really has a big big heart and thanks to the internal instant messaging system we have in the Bank, I am still able to keep in touch with her. She's probably one of the only people around where I work that keeps my sanity. Being in the working world where everyone's from a different generation is really heart warming to be able to talk to someone who's from the same wave length.


Sad to say that we are working different hours and at different locations. She's based in Cyberjaya while I am in the heart of KL and while she works in UK time, I am working in Malaysian time. Its been ages since I last met her, and although we could keep in touch on-line its quite different to be able to meet her face-to-face.

Well, lately I have been hearing a lot about how the 'older' generation spend their youth it dawn upon me that my youth is far slipping away and if I continue to wait I will never be able to say I had a fruitful 'youth hood'. I am proud to say that I never regretted my childhood neither did I regret my College days, I believe I have live it to the fullest (in my own understanding) and since I stepped in the working world, I have allowed circumstances to get the best of me. No more of that!


To mark that I am going to live everything to the fullest and to inject back life into my years here on earth, I have poured in hope. I have started taking mandarin classes. (Not those where you learn how to read, write and soon a scholar) Its a bit taxing as I have to rush for class after work and to wait for the all wonderful KTM and reach home slightly after 11pm and get up again the next day for work. (Mind you the horrible KTM can make you late eventhough you arrive at the station at 7.12am as the train can come as late as 8.30pm) What other steps I will be taking well as time goes by I will blog about it.

Oh! I watched the wedding of Prince William and Kate. Amazing how everyone around the world and especially in London celebrates with them. I can imagine the jam packed tube after the entire ceremony. Anyway, I guess Kate and Prince William has brought in an extra flavour to the royal family. Soon to follow little Kates and Wills. Do hope that this fairytale love will last. Its nice to see that he faces lit up when he saw her. Well, interestingly the wedding was also shown in Dataran Merdeka. Sad to say I hardly even know anything about our own country King and Queen what more their children or grandchildren for the matter.


Well really glad May its finally here! Less working days. ;)


A little about Easter, it was such an experience to be able to worship God in the open an at such an unearthly hour. Glory indeed to God on High. Really can imagine when one day we will be seeing the Lord Jesus face to face and singing praises to Him everyday in the open outdoors. How awesome! ~ I'm sure the weather be much better then. ;) It was rather hot when it hit 8am. Sun beating down my back and all I could think was to run for shade but praise God for the beautiful weather then.
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Called by God
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The Bible says that God has defined the place and time in which we are to live. "LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance" (Ps 16:5-6).

After much questioning about whether this is really where God has placed me, I can say for sure I know God has called me here. Struggling through I was at the verge of giving it all up, throwing in my towel but God just kept holding me up.

It can never be more assuring to know that although things around you just don't seem to be going the way you want it to be that one bigger than the circumstance and the issues is holding everything together and watching over me.

I really believe that just like Joseph who was brought through so many different trials could come out victorials because ultimately He knew who He was serving. One of my friends asked me one day whether is it really worth it to work in place where you know you could be better off elsewhere with more time for yourself and family and probably more interesting. I remember giving him this answer that its Christ we are serving whether with the missions, in the church, in our families or even at our workplace.

If He has called then no matter what, He is there. Ultimately is not about quality of time in what we can do rather doing what God intends us to do. That does not mean all will be at well but that means God will be there even when things are bad. It is here that we will receive our inheritance as we fulfill our purposes in and through our work life call.
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God's Chisel
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Walking with Him
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Have you ever felt a strong conviction that there is a stronger source far above our control, far above our thoughts?

Its the season of Lent, so I took a conscious effort to reflect on my journey with the Lord. Sometimes, when you are with one person for so long you tend to forget that every moment is special and you take for granted the relationship that is shared.

I accepted Christ when I was in Standard 4 in a Christmas Eve celebration in church. It was a little weird on how the whole thing happened. As an innocent child, I raise my hand saying yes I want to accept the Lord. My little sis and little bro was with me and we went up together. I knew little about what this meant but my journey in the Lord did not start here (I am sure it started way before I was born) but it was the beginning of many more to unfold, a major milestone in my life.

The excitement grew even more when my elder sister who already accepted the Lord in an evangelistic camp was excited and shared with her friends that we accepted the Lord. I was so proud of that decision I made, I even went around telling my friends that I have accepted the Lord.

Fast forward through time. Its been 10 over years and the Lord has been faithful. In every wrong turn I make, when I stumble and fall, in my sinful selfish self the Lord has never forsaken me. Indeed many times I ask this question. Who am I that the Lord of Host, the King of Kings would want to have a relationship with me?

I'm ever grateful that although the years has passed, His love for me has never changed. He was there when I was 10 to listen to me say Lord be the Lord of my life. He was there when I had to make a decision when I was 16 whether to remain in the science stream or to move to the arts. He was there when I felt all alone and when I felt everyone was against me.

He was there when I was looking for a place to continue my education and the course I wanted to take. He was right there when I was homesick during my first semester in college. He was there when I cried for finances when times were tough. He was there when I struggled to cope with the pressure from CF and studies.

He was there when I had to leave my family for the very first time for a long time. He was there when I was in the land of strangers. He saw me through the time I backpack around Europe. Never for a moment lacking anything. Keeping me healthy throughout.

He was there when I felt all is lost. He was there when I didn't know what job I should apply for (He literally gave me the job. The job came to me not me applying for it). He saw me through the difficult period of starting out in a place totally out of my comfort zone.

He brought me through experience after experience with Him. He is there to hear me say Lord forgive me for the proudness of Spirit each day. He is still here for me, patiently allowing me to spread my wings. Allowing me to stumble, just like the Mother Eagle, He lets me fly watching from a distance allowing me to fall so that I my wings will strengthen but never letting any harm come to me. Nudging me off the cliff at times so that I don't stay comfortable in the nest but to grow and mature.

Really all I can say the Lord has been good. A friend I can always count on. Who am I to deserve such grace? Only a speck of dust on this earth. No rights at all but You gave it all for this human race.

No mountain, no valley, no gain or loss we know
could keep us from Your love
No sickness, no secret, no chain is strong enough
to keep us from Your love
to keep us from Your love

How high, how wide
No matter where I am, healing is in Your hands
How deep, How strong,
And now by Your grace I stand, healing is in Your hands

Our present, our future, our past is in Your hands
We're covered by Your blood
We're covered by Your blood

How high, How wide
no matter where I am, healing is in Your hands
How deep, How strong
And now by Your grace I stand, healing is in Your hands

In all things, we know that.
We are more than conquerors.
You keep us by your love.
You keep us by your love.

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