After nearly two months of work I have to say that I am at the cliff of the mountain. The pressure at work is probably too much for me to handle. Coupled with the long hours of work, horrible train services and the lack of sleep, is driving me up the wall.
I have to admit that so far the experience gain is certainly beyond what I have ever imagine. In less than two months, I have sat in the Board of Directors meeting and the Exco meeting. I have drawn up proposals and come up with policies. Indeed a well of knowledge flooding in.
How can you be so sure of something and yet feel so trapped? I always thought that walking the road knowing that He has chosen would mean everything will be laid out. Then it dawn upon me how the road less taken is always the hardest. That obedience is not easy and taking up the cross daily is one uphill task. At times like this I am reminded of the warriors who knowing full well of the task ahead and the difficulties that comes with it still said yes to the Lord and stayed strong throughout.
Such a struggle. The comfort I have in the place I am is that I know that He is there because I have taken that step of obedience. Has it been a difficult choice? It would be a lie if I said no. Even before taking up the job I had such a struggle and I am still struggling.
I don't have all the answers and I don't have all the solutions. Anyhow, I am glad for the people He placed to support me through time like this especially my mum. She is really my pillar of strength.
Don't mean to be all emotional about the struggles. Something I am really trying.
But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
2 Corinthians 4:7-9
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